Podcast Episode 30 - The Mani Gen Pivot

I have a fun story planned for you. I'm going to be sharing the behind the scenes of the big decision that I recently made in my business to shift directions and burn down a lot of the things that have been previously successful and head in a new direction. Very mani gen of me.

It's time for a pivot in direction feels like it came out of nowhere. If you are interested in learning about pivoting, about the 6/2 profile, about mani gens, the emotional authority, and, of course, what exactly I will be doing in this next phase of life and business, you’re in the right place!

I recently got back from a week long team retreat in Costa Rica that was absolutely mind blowing. It was such a beautiful experience. It was so amazing to meet some of the girls who've been working on my core team for two years now. While we were there, I just felt things shifting. I know that when I travel, things tend to clarity. It's a very like mountains environment pattern to go away, gain that clarity, step away from all the actions, step away from that daily life, and then have these big insights and big clarity coming back.

I knew that I needed to make a shift in my business. That's something that's been apparent for the last couple of months when we had the Business Academy launch that did not go the way we were expecting it to go. Then we had the SSCC launch, the human design certification launch, that also did not quite go the way that we were expecting. It’s really easy, especially in business, to get caught up in the narrative of what everyone else is saying of business is just changing; the industry is changing; the things that used to work aren't working anymore; we're going through a recession. Absolutely everybody is going to be affected, and that's the reason for sales - everyone's in this collective energy of scarcity.

I thought about that. I was just checking in to see if I was experiencing lack and scarcity, and if that's something that I was energetically available for, if I'm putting it out there, if like that's what I'm receiving. I'm just looking at all the data and looking at all of the information that I've received, and in order to look at that information from a neutral perspective, I have to feel through my feelings.

I get to acknowledge the frustration. I get to acknowledge the anger. I get to acknowledge how unfair it feels that I have done all this work and it didn't turn out the way that I wanted it to. I could talk about how unfair it feels, regarding how there was so much interest in these programs, and then people were saying it's not the right time. All these things I could go into.

So, I just started reflecting on what I have been doing the past couple of months, the past year and a half or so, and money has always been a really big theme for me. It's always been something that I talk about a lot, that I've done a lot of work around. I noticed that it was a big theme that had been coming up for me in the past year or so. I responded to that urge and headed in that direction. I think this is just such a beautiful example of how when we're responding, we never know the full story. We're only responding to what's correct in this moment and the next correct action.

I can look at the last couple of months in business and think it was a failure. That it didn't go well. I can look at it, and I can really easily start doubting my decision making, the things that I have done, the action steps that I have taken, the people that I have brought into my world, the people that I've trusted, but every single moment that I have made a decision in these past couple of years, I've done so from a space of intuition. I've done so from my inner authority. I trust that if I'm doing my best in the moment to follow my inner authority and to follow my intuition, then whatever action step I take is correct, even if it doesn't lead to the immediate outcome that I am expecting or desiring.

That's part of the undefined energy. We get to be surprised and delighted by what we experience, and that means the broad range of it. It means being delighted and surprised by the things that we want to label as negative, or the things that we want to label as failure as well. I was looking at all these decisions and coming to a space of self-acceptance, feeling any feelings that were coming up, and then taking in the feedback. I had originally thought a couple of weeks ago before I went on this team retreat to Costa Rica, I was really under the impression that my next step was going to be talking about money, because in my eyes, that's what I've been focusing on for the last couple of years. I've done all this healing work, all this ancestral work, all this reconnecting with my family, but I thought that most of the work that I was doing was focused on my ability to receive money.

But when I took a step back and really what I saw when I was in Costa Rica was while I have been deconditioning things related to money, I've been working with relationships. I've been working with people. I've been bringing human design to family dynamics. I've been bringing human design to ancestral healing and lineage, patterns that have come up and the family patterns of scarcity, the family belief systems. I realized that while, yes, I have been focusing on money, really the biggest thing that's changed, that has also impacted the money, has been relationships, connection, communication, and family dynamics.

When I took a step back and saw that, the last year or so really seems profound to me. It's really a beautiful experience. My now husband and I were high school sweethearts. We moved out together at 18, and he enlisted in the Air Force a couple of months later. We got married quickly, and then we moved to Missouri. We moved to the Midwest for six years, and while we were there, it was really difficult for me to keep long distance relationships with friends. I’ve never been good at it. But what showed up was that I'm also not good at keeping up long distance relationships with family members.

There are eight of us children, and of itself, just having that many children, there's going to be an age gap. I'm the second oldest, and when I moved out at 18, my youngest sister was 9. A huge age gap. When you're an 18-year-old, you're just a very different person than a nine-year-old. It's hard to connect. It's hard to build those relationships. I’ve visited a couple of times, but it always felt awkward because I'm very estranged. So, that has made us just not really close.

This realization hit back in April when we got word that my grandfather was in the hospital. This was the first time that all my siblings went back to where my mom currently is and most of my siblings are living in Colorado. We all went back; we all saw each other for the first time in several years. It was really interesting to see what people were expecting versus what they were able to receive.

My younger sister is 16 now, and I can vibe with a 16-year-old. She's like a mini adult. She's still very much a child, but I'm able to have more of a conversation with her. I'm able to see the things that are going on in her life and offer advice, offer guidance, offer just sarcastic feedback because that's our love language. I'm able to really rebuild these relationships.

I felt like for the first time in April, I met most of my siblings. I met the adult versions of them, and we became friends. Since then, my brother moved in with us for a couple of weeks, finished some school things here. We had them come out again. I had a couple of my siblings come stay for a week. It was so much fun. Then when my grandfather passed a couple of weeks ago, we all went back again for him while he was in hospice care. Again, most of us coming back and meeting each other.

Being able to share relationship advice and talk about energy dynamics and relationship dynamics with teenagers and young adults has been a fun conversation. That’s been a major theme of the things that I've been doing behind the scenes of my life, while my business has just been running and doing its thing. Talking about dynamics, but also the fact that I've spent really this past year working on healing my relationship to money and healing my relationship to like a lot of things: acceptance, receptivity, guilt, shame, scarcity, lack, resource scarcity.

When I was able to reconnect with my siblings, I was able to validate a lot of their feelings and experiences. I was able to share the perspective that I've gained from being so separate and from being removed from the situations. We were able to talk about things. We were able to heal things. I realized the impact of me doing the ancestral healing that I've done. It's not just about me, and it's not just for me, it's for my siblings. It's for the people in my life. It’s the most profound work that I've done because family is a juicy topic.

Family can be a very triggering topic, and so can money. This is very open head center too, where you're not sure where the inspiration's going to come from, but if it feels good in your body and you take that next step, and the next piece of inspiration will come to you. I knew that talking about business was no longer it. Whatever I'm doing right now is not going to work because we have evidence of that. The energy was off, and I thought about it and was so relieved at the idea of not having to teach business strategy for an entire year. I knew that was a decision that was also aligned with me.

It was really good for me to accept that I've been doing all of this money work and that the business strategy, the business coaching is not quite where my soul wants to be. It’s funny because I've had this feeling for a really long time that I'm not going to be a business coach forever. I've been saying it for a while that not everyone's meant to be a business coach, and if at any point it's time to move on, it's time to move on. That’s perfectly okay. I've been talking about how I see the shift in the industry that's about to happen is a lot of people who are trying to be business coaches and who feel like it’s their calling are going to realize that that's not actually what they're meant to do. That's just what they think is going to make them money. They're going to make a shift. I genuinely believe that everyone is designed to have an incredible impact, and it's going to look different for everybody, but we don't need everyone to be a business coach.

Letting go of that identity wasn't something that really scared me. This was a major difference for me from my last big shift, and my last big shift was I quit my nursing job six weeks after being hired as a brand new registered nurse. I just finished my bachelor's degree. I had just passed the national nursing boards. I got my license and lasted six weeks before I quit my job to really focus full time on my business. That was a really, really, really big decision for me. It genuinely felt like an identity. It felt like I was losing someone. I felt grief. I was losing a part of myself and a piece of this whole identity that I had built up around being one of the top students in my class and always having great notes and turning in all my paperwork on time and being great with patients and surprising all the nurse preceptors that I was with of how smart I was and with how much information I could share.

What's so, so, so funny is that all the feedback that I got, all the nurses that I worked with praised how I gave patient education. I did a lot of work in the emergency room, and it’s a fast-paced energy where we're trying to get people out the door quickly, but we're dealing with pretty complex physiological systems and pretty complex disease processes. If you've listened to me talk about human design, I come up with really random analogies all of the time; I did the same thing in nursing school.

I was just explaining things. I was just making sure that people understood the information that was relevant to them. That’s the main thing that was seen in me, even in this whole nursing world, was “You're such a good teacher. You're so good at explaining things. You really connect with people. People really like you. People feel safe in your energy.”

Leaving that job and leaving that career was a major, major identity shift, and it happened very quickly. I came back from a trip to Sedona. It hit me on the way back that I had to quit my job the next day, not in six months like I was planning on. Then I had to immediately inform my husband. He felt like it was very out of left field. It caused a lot of chaos. For me to say, “I'm selfishly going after this thing that I want, and I know it doesn't make sense to everybody, but this is what I'm doing,” caused a lot of issues in the beginning. But I knew that it was something that I needed to do and followed it.

I feel like I'm one of the first few people to really blend human design and business. I was one of the first people to offer that in my coaching certification program. I feel like I've played a major part in bringing human design to the coaching world in general, and I'm so, so, so proud of that. There's also this feeling of responsibility of if I started this conversation, have I closed everything? Have I done the best that I can? I don't want to just bring new ideas to the collective and then leave it in chaos if people are not understanding something or if there's issues in the way that content is being taught.

I see the issues that are popping up with human design content being available for business strategy, and there's all these things that I've been trying to fix. I've been trying to teach correctly. I've been trying to do it differently, and I didn't realize how frustrated I was. I thought it was me completing the things that I started, but really what's come up for me is that it's not about me. It's about the content, and it's about the information. I am not a five line. I think five line profiles are phenomenal - people who are able to see exactly what the problem is and able to fix it. Every single time that I've tried to fix a problem, which isn't even a problem, it's just the way that my brain operates, and sees that there's possible room for improvement, there's potential for it to be different, there's potential for people to understand it differently, I get attached to that. With my undefined G center, I want to be that person for people. Five lines offer this like hero energy, and I love being that person (very undefined G center of me).

It's very, very attractive to my undefined G center to be that person, but it's not sustainable. It's not sustainable for me to be talking about things that I have to sit down, think of, come up with, and try and piece together. I do well when content just flows. That's how I'm designed with that 34-20, information is just supposed to pour through me. I work with ideas, and I piece things together bit by bit, but things are supposed to flow through me pretty easily.

With four motor centers defined, I'm supposed to be a pretty energized person. Considering the fact that I'm tired a lot of the time and I work all the time and I am still not quite satisfied with the work that I'm doing, all these signs are saying that the talking about business just isn't quite it. Something else needs to change. According to my design, I am someone who's here to go off in my own world and find new ideas, find new concepts, and bring new ideas and concepts to the world and to society, and see if they accept it or not.

That's my incarnation cross; it’s the cross of duality where I go into my own little world and I create these new ideas, and I come up with these new things and I do all this research, and then I bring that to the collective when I'm ready for it. I didn't realize that this was happening behind the scenes, but I've been doing that. I've been learning about relationships. I've been learning about ancestral healing. I've been learning about connection. I've been looking at business charts for years, but really understanding family charts. Family Penta dynamics are so different than the business chart dynamic but understanding both of them actually allows me to understand each of them on a deeper level.

It’s been so good to just kind of accept that the content that I want to create and the conversations that I want to have are less business focused and more life focused. It's more lifestyle content. It's more just talking about energy and just talking about people. I still really love a lot of the business content that I've created, especially since it was created while I was excited about it, while I was really in the flow, and while that energy was fresh and authentic coming through me. It wasn't forced. It was very beautiful. I still want to make a lot of that available, I just don't think I'll be creating more content around business, and maybe even money and manifestation too. I don't know if those are topics that I want to be talking about.

After having several people on my team, some of my siblings, and an Akashic record healer I was working with mention that I should talk about relationships or parenting, I started to have an intuitive feeling. It was just everywhere outside of me, and it gave me these things to respond to and just felt so good in my body. What if I could just talk about people? If I could just talk about people and patterns and human design, it wouldn't feel like I was responsible for creating the information and presenting it in a way that people were going to be able to instantly take it, turn it around, and create a result from it.

A lot of the people who were coming to me for business things were actually already asking me about relationships. Most of the private clients that I have had in the last couple of years, we've run connection charts. We've talked about them and their partner. We've talked about their sex life. We've talked about their relationships. We've talked about communication. We've talked about division of labor. We've talked about kids, parenting education. All the lifestyle things that support you being in alignment in your business.

I think that this really also showed me that I've built the lifestyle that supports me being in alignment. Yes, I've done that in my business, but I've also done it outside of my business. The reason why it's so successful in business is because my business is the only place that I get to show up in full alignment. It's everywhere in my life. I am fully aligned in my life. I am in my design. I am in my integrity. I am doing everything that I want to be doing in my world, and it also is reflected in my business.

To lead the charge in this new direction, I know that there are a ton of people talking about human design and relationships and parenting and kids, because that's what human design is really for ultimately. I'm ready to jump into that conversation and talk about it the way that I talk about it. Talk about it and explain things in the way no one else explains. No one else talks about things the way that I do, and I love getting the messages and the comments that say that you can go to a bunch of other resources and see the same thing, but then you come to my world, to my page, to my podcast, and while I could be talking about the same thing, you learn something so different and you learn something that you don't get to learn in other places. That’s my favorite compliment to get.

Obviously, my intention with shifting directions in my conversation is to explain relationships and parenting and education and connection and communication in the way that I understand it, because that's the next conversation that's being pulled through me. I know that I'm not the first person to talk about this, and I will probably not be the last person. But I want the business coaching community to be able to see that business coaching is not the be all end all. You could be wildly successful in any niche that you choose. If business coaching isn't it for you, you have other options.

Human design is applicable to so many more things than just business, and it's time for me to have a new conversation. It's time for me to talk about different things that I didn't realize I was holding myself back from talking about because of this business coaching identity. It’s time for me to take off that hat. I've completed all the business coaching clients that I have had. We've finished up everything there, and now it's time to transition into the next phase of talking about connection, relationships, and human design.

I'm so excited for the first time in forever. I have no idea what's going to happen next, but I'm really excited about what's going to happen next because I just know there's just this deep knowing that whatever comes through next is going to be even better than I can plan, even better than I can imagine. I'm just so open to allowing it to be that with that intention and just holding space for something incredible to come through. I am being very intentional around this transition phase. I've done the inner work. I have done the identity work. I have done the things that I needed to do to release any attachments that I had to this previous identity release, any resistance I have towards stepping into this next identity. I've done that work internally. I also informed the people closest to me, the people who were going to need to know what was going on because they're part of this next journey.

This is that mani gen urge. I know that manifestors have these consistently, and I believe mani gens do as well. This is my next urge, and then I'm going to initiate this. I'm going to inform. Then over the next couple of years, I'll really be in that generator energy where I'm just responding, responding, responding within the umbrella of that urge. But this is the next big creative urge that's coming through me, which means that I have to be informing. I need to be overexplaining what's going on to make sure that the right people are able to come with me in this next step and to push away the people who are not ready for this next step. If you're really only here for the business money and human design content, you may not want to stick around anymore. You may want to stick around just to watch me as a business owner change directions in my business and in my company, that might be a really fun adventure, but the content that I'm creating, if it's not speaking to you, it's not going to speak to you, and that's completely okay. This is a turning point, and the right people are going to come with me. The wrong people are not, and they're going to be free to go explore the other corners of the internet.

I feel like there's this energy of completion, and when I have a creative urge, it's like this excitement is starting to build for the next phase. This excitement is starting to ramp up. It's like the hype phase, but there's also this ego energy, and my ego energy is coming in and coming in in a very aligned way, but this is my decision-making factor. My emotional wave is attached to my ego center, so when I make decisions, I turn the conversation into how do I turn what I'm feeling into commitment, into willpower, into action, into resolve? That's my conversation in my authority channel. If you don't know your authority channel, what is the channel that defines the center that is your authority?

When I am making a decision, it’s two motor centers. It's the emotional center, which is a motor center and an awareness center, and then the ego center, which is a motor center. They're connecting. They're having this conversation. What comes out of my decisions are going to be very heavily backed by action. With my decision-making process there’s also an essence of how do I make sure that I'm staying in integrity? How do I make sure that I'm doing something that's fair? The 37-40 channel is very much about weighing the pros and cons of what can I do for you? How can I take responsibility for my desires and show you that divine will is all in self responsibility? If when you take responsibility for your desires and for making the things that you want to happen, we create this self-reliance that supports interconnectivity and supports healthy relationship dynamics because it doesn't allow for codependency. It allows for support.

That’s the conversation that I navigate when I'm making decisions. How do I make sure that I'm doing what's aligned for me to get the things that I want? How can I make sure I'm not exhausting myself to give to other people the things that I can tell that they want? How can I empower other people to take responsibility for being the only person in their world who is capable of getting the things that they want and making the reality that they desire happen for them? The best way that I can do that is not by doing it for you, not by exhausting myself to give you everything possible to make it easier for you, but to show you that you're strong enough to navigate that, by showing you how I navigate it myself.

As I commit to going after the things that I want and having the conversation that feels better to me, there's also this energy of completion. This next phase is going to be one of completion before I really jump into all the new content, and that requires me to inform and finish any projects that are unfinished, finish anything that I have promised to finish. That closure is really important to me, and this is because I'm an ego being. These are promises that I made, these were promises that I made to other people, but ultimately to myself. I promised that I would get those things done. Those are the things that for me, need to be completed so that I have closure on this business coaching side of things, and then I can really step into this next identity with clarity.

I have space. I have breathing room. I have room for the clarity for the next steps to really come through. But it's also this feeling of I don't need more guidance right now. I don't need more answers because I know what my next steps are. My next steps are to wrap up the few things that I need to wrap up, and then start pouring energy into this new direction as it comes through me.

I know the main tasks in front of me, and then I know the next direction that my energy's going to be heading in, and I don't need to know. I have no idea what's going to come of this. I don't know how this content wants to come through until I'm really in that space of fully connecting with it, and that's going to be so much easier when I have everything off my plate. That's when everything's really going to come through.

We are celebrating new directions. We're moving into a new phase. It's going to be very, very exciting. I am just really excited to see what comes through, and I haven't felt this relaxed of the unknown for a while. I think that that's such a major sign for me that this is in alignment and that comfortability within the uncomfortable is such a powerful feeling to create and to have. I’m feeling very grateful for it right now.

As far as some of the business/money programs that will be available: SSCC will still be available for the self-paced option, and Patterns of Prosperity will run live one more time. Patterns of Prosperity

Who knows what's going to happen in 2023, but I know that it's going to be an incredible year. There are going to be a lot of pivots, a lot of shifts in directions, and I'm just really excited to see how everything unfolds.

 

If you’re interested in checking out the certification program, here’s the link for that: Sacred Success Coaching Method

If you’re interested in checking out Patterns of Prosperity, here’s the link for that: Patterns of Prosperity

If you're interested in my free connection chart coloring sheet, here's the link for that: Connection Chart Coloring Sheet

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